My outfit

My outfit for my character is quite pain and simple  as my character doesn't really give the impression that she dress fancy in everyday life. Also , she is a 18year old girl and would properly wear my kind of age rang of clothes. 

I wore a scarf because the play is set in April and it wouldn't be that warm to wear vests but to hot to wear coats. I'm wearing a black bob Marley because I think my character would quite like his kind of music and it dosent look to fancy it looks laid back. I wore skinny jeans because they are comfortable and look laid back .

So I was looking though my photos as I was so bored on a Monday night and I saw there pictures and thought why not make a slideshow, so here it is:

 

as in Plato words " People are like dirt. They can either nourish you and help you grow as a person or they can stunt your growth and make you wilt and die."

As I forgot to do a little introduction of myself I thought I would do it now:


my name is Alex and I'm 18 years old. I'm adopted by a man called Joseph. who's alright, at times. I use to go to one of, so called , best university, Cambridge.  but I left after 6 months.also I work at crappy old Sainsbury to pay my way. my goal in life is just to be happy, travel the world and finally ,one day  I WILL go back to Rwanda and live there till the day I die.  I don't have a boyfriend , because I don't need one. I have recently found out that I have a brother called Simon who I thought died in the Rwanda Genocide but turns out Joseph was either lying to me or just took me and couldn't be bothered to carry two of us. Joseph always calls me noisy or rude  for asking questions about the Rwanda Genocide. I hate it when people call me noisy or rude because I don't think I am. oh yeah! and finally my mum died, right in front of my eyes.

omg! Joseph looks like a fat old man, he needs to loss some weight fast!

this is my crappy old bedsit I had to stay in when I went to Cambridge. Ergh! so happy I'm away from that!

this is me, at cambrigde on my first day. My roommate took it just before i was about to leave to go to my first lecture.  Joseph texted me saying good luck but i will replie later as im busy.i was so excited to start my first lecture in Phisoslpy. i love phiosophy i just love the fact that sometimes we dont have any answers in the world to explain what we are doing on earth, is God real? and what is are purpose in life? it just taught me so much about the world and made mw think deeper into the world. Also, it amazing how in m sixth form for  Alevel some members of he class would come out of lesson still aruging with some about a topic in class. haha, that would be most of the time.

Guess what Joseph is doing now! he's has such an amazing opportunity that would give him so much confidence and put this career back in action. he got offered an expedition place! and guess what he's said?! go on, guess! If you thought he turned it down and carried on eating cheese you were spot on. I don't understand why he said that. I mean what was going thought that guys mind did he think , oh I know what I will just still on my ass for the rest of my life and eat cheese instead of doing something I love! he must thought that. there is no other explanation of why he said no. or is there? .....Nope, than that I can think of. or.... maybe... just maybe..... he's trying to get back at me for dropping out of Cambridge. that's it! I bet you that's it! ohh, he's sneaky I'll give him that! but I don't understand why my life has nothing to do with. in a couple of years I'm going back to Rwanda or maybe go travelling so why would he wreck his life just to proof a point! well, I have never gotten the species of men and I'm not going to try and figure them out now or not ever!  

First day back at home and once again Joseph is make some  stupid decisions  it turns out he isn't taking photos of wars anymore! no, he's not! guess what he's doing now taking pictures of stupid weddings with a stupid bride and groom with some stupid family's crying with happiness! I mean what the hell is he thinking he earned thousands from what he did and now he earn hundreds if he's lucky. I mean, I get, he's getting old and the traveling might be hard for him at times but its just laziness. Laziness, laziness and laziness he's becoming a hermit! no joke all he does all day is eat cheese and if he's not eating it, he's ordering more to last him though the week.  which is properly why there nothing in the fringe apart from... bloody cheese! with a couple beers which will be gone by tonight.

he told me over the phone that he was fine and doing well in his job but he's clearly not. he either been black bolted or he just cant be bothered to get off his lazy ass! I think its the ass one as he's doing it right in front of me now. he's acting like these nothing to live for but there's so much in his life and their could be more!

First day back at home could have been better. Turns out telling a guardian that you dropped out of Cambridge isn't a great idea, but oh well haven't listened to Joseph for 17 years so I'm not goanna start now. what I mean by this is that its my life and I can do what ever I want with it like travel the world or go back and live in Rwanda. Ahh , that would be nice wouldn't it to go back to Rwanda with no exam stress and no joseph telling what to do with my life like I'm still  1 years old! I think he has a reason to do this because he thinks he saved me when in Rwanda and he thinks he has to keep saving me but I don't need saving I never have and never will! ever at 1 years old I could have copied on my own in  Rwanda with just me and Simon. I'm just picturing my life their now with him and are little house there with maybe a boyfriend and Simon would have a girlfriend. Ahh I think about that life all the time the perfect place in the world; would just be there. Anyway, back to reality I still don't understand why Joseph is being like I this I'm 18 I can do what I want. tomorrow , if I wanted to I could easily buy a one way ticket Rwanda or any where and never come back. but I bet he would find me and carry back to England like he did in 1994 in Rwanda.

Ergh! What a day university at Cambridge everything was going well for the first six months until, in one of the lectures today their was a photo that made my spine cringe with embarrassment! and guess what it was!!? It was ME! me ,me ,me  ,me. when I was in Rwanda just after the war  with a leg blown off next to me. Charming. I mean it just had to be me! it had to be that same bloody photo of me that Joseph took when I was younger in war. But what made it worst was that some people in the lectures looked at me and giving me dirty looks like I was freakier than normal. Great. I'm even thinking of changing university or even leaving. even if I do leave I'm not going to miss much, apart from boring old lectures and hearing my drunk roommates come home at 2'oclock from the bedsit. oh yeah! and don't forget the dent that I'm going to have to pay off for the rest of my life.

Or if I do decide to stay hopefully no one with remember it and most hopefully no one  noticed it was me at all. another thing to add to my list of worries such as paying two months of rent and phoning Joseph because I need to take my angry out on some one! Well, don't I!?