First day back at home could have been better. Turns out telling a guardian that you dropped out of Cambridge isn't a great idea, but oh well haven't listened to Joseph for 17 years so I'm not goanna start now. what I mean by this is that its my life and I can do what ever I want with it like travel the world or go back and live in Rwanda. Ahh , that would be nice wouldn't it to go back to Rwanda with no exam stress and no joseph telling what to do with my life like I'm still  1 years old! I think he has a reason to do this because he thinks he saved me when in Rwanda and he thinks he has to keep saving me but I don't need saving I never have and never will! ever at 1 years old I could have copied on my own in  Rwanda with just me and Simon. I'm just picturing my life their now with him and are little house there with maybe a boyfriend and Simon would have a girlfriend. Ahh I think about that life all the time the perfect place in the world; would just be there. Anyway, back to reality I still don't understand why Joseph is being like I this I'm 18 I can do what I want. tomorrow , if I wanted to I could easily buy a one way ticket Rwanda or any where and never come back. but I bet he would find me and carry back to England like he did in 1994 in Rwanda.